In My Dreams I Hold a Knife by Ashley Winstead

Rating: ★★★★★

Dates Read: 10/10/23 - 10/10/23

    A decade after their college graduation, Jessica Miller plans a triumphant return to her elite alma mater, Duquette University, concealing the scars of a past marred by a friend's unsolved murder. As she reunites with her six closest friends from freshman year, the shadows of that tragic night resurface. Heather's murder had shattered their bond and disrupted their lives. Jessica, determined to present a polished facade, hides the trauma that still haunts her. Yet, not everyone is ready to move on. Some are obsessed with solving the cold case and seeking justice. As the reunion forces them to confront their shared past, the group must confront the secrets they've kept hidden for years, exposing the truth about what really happened that fateful night.

    Ashley Winstead's writing style is simply hypnotic, blending humor and darkness effortlessly. Jessica Miller, the main character, is flawlessly portrayed as a complex, insecure individual desperately trying to carve a place in the spotlight, haunted by a fear of insignificance. She's self-centered, ambitious, and broken, displaying self-destructive tendencies and a warped moral compass, making her both frustrating and sympathetic. Despite her flaws, you can't help but feel sorry for her due to her troubled past and misplaced ambitions, a sentiment that makes her highly relatable.

    The book is a gripping, unputdownable read that perfectly captures the essence of flawed characters. The narrative skillfully weaves between different timelines, providing valuable insights into the characters' motives and perspectives. The flashbacks, especially those featuring Jess' family and her conversation with Heather about their future, are standout moments, adding depth to the story.

    What sets this book apart is its ability to portray the imperfections and hidden struggles of seemingly untouchable individuals. It vividly captures the destructive nature of false pretenses, offering readers a thrilling glimpse into the consequences of trying to conceal one's flaws. 

    I really enjoyed this, and I highly recommend it, as well as anything else by Ashley Winstead.